On a good day I like to think that I have the ability to one day become a writer. My biggest hurdle though is my inspiration and my complete procrastination. It starts with those whole low self-esteem issues like “I could never be good at that” or “That’s not for me, that’s for those talented creative types”.. yup, fun thoughts there.
I know we all have these kind of thoughts and it’s just a matter of figuring out how to overcome them and push through to become one of those “talented creative types.”
So how do we push through? Inspiration and perspiration.
I have a hard time really forcing myself to sit down and treat the writing like a job. Take this blog for example, I’m sitting here trying to put this idea out that has been floating in my head for a few days now. However, I’m sitting here distracted by the TV and getting each word out is like pulling teeth.
I know that if ever really want to make anything like this a professional gig, I need to eventually treat it like a job, but that just seems to take all the fun out of it. It’s part of the reason I don’t really like those “I must write X number of words per day” style of writing. I see positives and negatives in it, but it really makes me feel more like I’m in school and being forced to write as opposed to actually taking enjoyment out of it. It’s like scheduling a play date with your characters vs. being pulled into there adventure and along for the ride not knowing where you will end up.
Where does that leave us? Well, like any blog it’s really nothing more than my thoughts put out there, “screaming into the void” is the phrase that I really like. It seems to make this all seem much more important and deep.
I’ll keep working on my procrastination and negativity to one day gain more inspiration and hopefully less perspiration to actually get my thoughts out there.
I’ve taken a lot of chances on new things in the last year or so. Mostly due to Netflix and there Instant Watch Streaming service (arguably one of the greatest inventions in human history). I’ve taken chances with Stargate, Doctor Who, Psych, 30 Rock and numerous other TV shows and movies.
However, I have noticed one thing with this ability to watch countless programs easily, and just about hassle free. I’m still blinded by my supposed hatred of certain things. I’m left puzzled by how I can refuse to watch things that are recommended to me by very reliable sources.
Let’s take Firefly for example. I’m no fan of Joss Whedon, but I must admit I have only had the smallest of samples of his work. But, it seems that the topic of Firefly has come up many times recently. Enough times that one could argue it’s almost a conscious sign that I NEED to watch it. With the amount of times that it has come up, it’s gotten me thinking about how much energy and effort goes into avoiding these things that we presume to hate, though have never even given a fair chance.
In the past I’ve made small attempts to watch Firefly, of course I started with the theatrical movie Serenity. It could be argued that this was my mistake right there, starting with the finale.
With the amount of times it seems that Firefly has come up recently it almost seems that the silliness of my abject hatred of something I’ve never even tried is being called. The universe has called my bluff. It’s like when you are a kid and your parents tried to get you to eat your dinner saying things like “But, you like meatloaf, you’ll like it. It’s good”
So, do I finally sit down close my eyes and eat my vegetables? or do I continue to sit there like a child, pout, throw my temper tantrum, burn calories on the fact that somewhere along the line I ate a poorly cooked brussel sprout?
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again… I really am a lousy blogger. I blame Twitter and Facebook, I get all my little nuggets of interestingness out in 140 characters or less.
The more I think about it, the more I need to keep coming back here. Even if it’s just to throw some nonsensical post about what I did today up. It’s good practice. I need to write, I need to use these literary muscles or they will atrophy completely. This is important.
Some people push themselves to go to the gym, to work out, to burn off those extra calories from the hot fudge sundae they ate last night. In my case, I need to be here to work out the mental muscles are my brains will turn into something similar to the aforementioned hot fudge sundae (although I’m sure it would be a lot less tasty.. unless you are Hannibal Lecter).
Ideally I would like to use this place as a kind of practice area, get my words out there, get used to a format, build up a style, etc.
If I had to pick a dream job in life, it would be a reviewer. Reviewing movies, games, TV, pretty much anything. If I can injest it and spew out my opinions that would make me happy. So I think I will try that here.
I love feedback, good or bad. Tell me how much I suck and I will work to suck less in the future. So comment and make me better at all this.